Paranoia City

I wanted to go buy something as usual but I’m out of cash. I don’t want to use my credit card. I might be addicted to shopping. I just want be happy, I think I am… not sure.
Recently I have been totally obsessed with the safety of my mother. When every she leaves the house I start to worry about all the things that could go wrong. And I can’t wait until she is home and I know that she is safe. I don’t know if I’m being unreasonable. Maybe it is because I’ve been watching shows like Law and Order, and Crime shows on Discovery that I’m totally paranoid.

post christmas

Christmas is over and I have about a week left before I start the new semester. For now work and shopping is what is on my schedule. I got this new radio alarm clock, and it is so nice! It has this nature sounds feature…. I just took a nap listening to ocean noises! I love the ocean, although I haven’t seen one in person, which is kind of sad. So hungry… need to eat dinner. I’m on a diet trying to lose a few pounds before school starts, even though I’m a vegetarian, I still can’t get away from junk food. Not that, that was the reason I became one.

well needed break

Well, another semester is over and I am enjoying my vacation. It is almost Christmas. Time goes by so fast. My final grades were okay but not what I had hoped for, even though I’m grateful for what I have I am never satisfied with the end result. I am going shopping on Wednesday. Just thinking about it makes me happy. I think I am addicted to shopping. I really shouldn’t be spending money but it makes me so happy. Anything for happiness, right?