Love in reality and other rants

Well so much for the meeting… I didn’t get to go because my mother had a crisis and I had to help her and I moved the appointment to another day.

The one person I love unconditionally in this world is my mother. I really don’t think I could go on without her. She is the reason I do anything. My main goal in life is to make my mother happy. There are some days where we get into these fights where both of us (mostly her, I tend to shutdown and keep my anger inside… another issue for another day) say hurtful things to each other, but I have promised myself that no matter what I’ll never turn my back on my mother.

I think the purest form of love is between a parent and a child. I don’t know if other types of love truly exist in reality. Only in fantasies and fairytales. I would like to see someone prove me wrong. Anyways enough with the deep thoughts… lol.

Dear work friends: omg… please stop telling me endless, mundane, tales about this guy and that guy! I am sick of pretending to care about what you have to say, seriously, stop it! There. I said it. I feel better.

Onto other rants.

Yesterday, I took work off and my schedule was messed up so I really didn’t have anything to do. As a result I started messing around on my cell phone and one thing led to another… I ended up buying 20 dollars worth of ringers and screensavers! I am dreading the arrival of the next bill… I couldn’t help it, it felt so good!

It is official. I am an insomniac. I can’t sleep before three am. The hours between 1 and 4, is my internet time. That is when I catch up on emails, groups, blog, and fan fictions. I can’t sleep if I don’t do these things first. I rarely use the computer during the day time, unless it is for school stuff.


My song of the moment, Somnambulist (I had to look up this word) by my all time favorite artist BT.

So little time, so little time
I'm so frustrated
Some little joy, so little joy
It's complicated
So little time, so little time
To work it on out
So little joy, so little joy
It's complicated
I feel I'm stumbling in the dark
Somnambulated
I feel my heart seeking the sparks
I'm praying for love
Praying for love
Some little time, so little time
When your heart's been faded
So little hope, so little hope
I'm praying for love
Is more than enough
Simply being loved loved
Is more than enough
So little time, so little time
Be acclimated
So little hope, so little hope
And I'm prayin' now with love
So little time the pace has changed
But I'm still waiting
A thousand years of timeless days
Somnambulating
I'm stumbling wounded in the dark
But I'm praying still for love
Love love
Prayin for Love
Simply being loved loved
Is more than enough